So I officially had a bad day. I'm in the ICU right now and one or our patients coded (i.e., cardiac arrest) and died. She was very young (late 20s) and after she had passed, we realized that it was her birthday. The first time she coded, we got a pulse back for a little bit and then lost it again and were in the middle of compressions when they let the mother come in...she walked up to the bed and told them to stop compressions and then started to thank everyone for the care they had given her daughter. I almost lost it. I often am close to losing it when a code goes poorly and someone dies and it's worse when they are young and you see the family reacting. I guess that's one reason I'm glad I'm not an MD.
On the way home, I cranked in to some of my favorite "bad day" songs and I don't know about you but sometimes I like to listen to sad songs. And so here are a few of my favorites for days like this (in the order in which I think of them):
1. "Asleep" by the Smiths (the lyrics = totally depressing)
2. "One" by U2 (U2 has so many good songs like this...)
3. "Breath Me" by Sia (featured in the last sequence of Six Feet Under...which ALWAYS makes me lose it)
4. "A Bad Dream" by Keane (featured in the scene where Carla says goodbye to a dying Laverne, one of the nurses on Scrubs)
5. "How To Disappear Completely" by Radiohead
6. "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star
7. "I Know" by Jude
8. "Famous Blue Raincoat" by Leonard Cohen (but best performed by Tori Amos)
9. "Dissolved Girl" by Massive Attack
10. "Milk" by Garbage (no idea what the lyrics mean but the music is very sad)
11. "You Have Been Loved" by George Michael
If I had more time, I would link these to sites where you could listen but I have to make dinner.
P.S. To all my loyal fans, sorry I haven't posted much lately...*usual song and dance*
2 comments:
Ohhhh bummer. That is a solid list of sad songs, but they do have a way of helping you through the pain. And yes, it makes me think of several U2 songs from the early 90s... And that one by SIA ALWAYS gets me. Which is funny bc I was never into the series, but I remember crying like a baby during that sequence of the final episode at your apartment. 'Member?
What a sad story! P, please explain why you were there...I apparently don't know the ins and outs of your job.
PS Part of the "word verification" for this comment is "cry." Coincidence?!?!?
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